Well, I've lost everything I had and more (financially) and I owe
thousands which I can't repay.
All in the name of trying to succeed at trading.
I do and don't regret what I've done. My mistakes will cost me and my
family in lost opportunities (holidays, presents, entertainment etc) and
a damaged credit score for years to come.
On the other hand I've gained a lot of insight into myself and I believe
that I'll be a better person because of it.
It is a sad fact for me (and for most people in general) that the
lessons I REALLY needed to learn / have drilled into my head are the
ones that I am only truly learning now.
I trade via a demo account, I write daily journals and have become more
disciplined - becoming overcautious in fact.
My trade triggers are still not properly defined although I have been
using Fibonacci levels more successfully now.
Not sure where this goes now. I'd still like to believe I can be
successful and I'll continue demo trading like this because constant
repetition of positive trades will help my self belief.
To summarise, I've screwed up in a big way over the last 5 years
(probably longer) and I don't know a way forward. I'm a very optimistic
person by nature but it seems misguided at present!
Bye for now.
